@Sans911your entitiled to feel like, just please keep yourself safe. your pretty much describing exaclty what i feel right now.
im wondering if you able to organise a time to go connect with those people in rl who you know care about you? catch up for coffee, doesnt have to be about mh but life in general....
you are an inspiration sis, even if you dont believe it. ive seen your posts to others and theres no way a dreadul person could write things as caring and loving as you do. i dont know if you realise, but despite the difficulties you go through, you are one of my glowing lights in that very dark vortex. you dont give up, you take steps backs, thats not giving up thats self care. nothign wrong with that
love and hugs to you @Sans911 
but your right this is depression, its the pits but there is that light. we just have to not let it go. whatever it is that gives you hope, that give you that knowledge that you will come out the other side even if you get sucked back in. whatever it is do not for any reason let it go.
@Sans911my thoughts are with you hun and I am sitting by your side always. These are for you so if you wake up in the middle of the night or tomorrow morning you can look at them. They are beautiful photos just like your heart and soul. Remember you DO MATTER and you are so WORTH IT. Hugs beautiful lady
