Just checking in.

[Teej]

Just checking in. Sorry for falling off again. I had a difficult situation with my son for a while, then had lots of self doubt about me on the forum. 

I really want to be here though and will endeavour to take small steps frequently to rejoin this community. I still believe in it strongly. 

My personal development has been pretty huge learning about adhd and me again. As part of this I'm going to use the pomodore strategy for my forum time starting today. 20 min stints then walk away until I can do my next 20 min stint.......without checking in between, reading posts or checking responses 😱😜. 

Being that different person everyday we'll see how that goes for now. Anyone taking bets on how long I will keep this up? 💜🤗😘😜

it's going to take a while to catch up and find my feet. My son moved out this weekend just gone. It's been a very mixed time having him home 24/7. Some great and not so great times. I think we are both looking forward to the space. I know my brain is needing time and space to breathe again. 

I'll drop in on threads throughout the week and start getting back into some CG posts as well. 

💜🤗 or 👊🏻💐 to those who want them. 

[Appleblossom]

@Teej 

Oooooh I wanna a hug from yoo.

I am not a betting woman, got corrupted by stats too early in life ... and other things ... lol

Great to see you on whatever terms .... WIll look up podmore.

[Maggie]

@Teej  Really good to see you, whenever, or however that works best for you.

Its tricky coming back, I’ve been there and done that. I’ll have to look up that strategy also.

Take care. Enjoy your home space. 💕💕💕

[Teej]

Thanks @Appleblossom , @Maggie .

I got the name wrong 🤦‍♀️

it's the Pomodoro technique. I have huge problems with time management, starting something, not getting distracted and then stopping once I've started 😳

1. Choose a task you'd like to get done

Something big, something small, something you’ve been putting off for a million years: it doesn’t matter. What matters is that it’s something that deserves your full, undivided attention.

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2. Set the Pomodoro for 25 minutes

Make a small oath to yourself: I will spend 25 minutes on this task and I will not interrupt myself. You can do it! After all, it’s just 25 minutes.

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3. Work on the task until the Pomodoro rings

Immerse yourself in the task for the next 25 minutes. If you suddenly realize you have something else you need to do, write the task down on a sheet of paper.

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4. When the Pomodoro rings, put a checkmark on a paper

Congratulations! You’ve spent an entire, interruption-less Pomodoro on a task.

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5. Take a short break

Breathe, meditate, grab a cup of coffee, go for a short walk or do something else relaxing (i.e., not work-related). Your brain will thank you later.

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6. Every 4 pomodoros, take a longer break

Once you’ve completed four pomodoros, you can take a longer break. 20 minutes is good. Or 30. Your brain will use this time to assimilate new information and rest before the next round of Pomodoros.

[Teej]

Back again @Maggie , @Appleblossom . I posted that before I lost it as it was a copy and paste. I'm hoping it turns out ok your end too. 

For me though at the moment I am trying to use it to keep moving from task to task. I can get into the trap of being on the forum for hours amongst other things. I also struggle to move from task to task. So this is what I'm trying for now. 

And now for the most important part 🥁 How are you? What's been happening in your lives? 

[outlander]

@Teej 💜💜

[Appleblossom]

Regulating attention on tasks and breaks is so important. @Teej 

For a while I was attached to the kitchen timer when kids little.  Trying to be fair was a losing battle, but at least I know I gave it me best.  Last 20 years I made sure there were clocks in all rooms. Also being professional and time watching over the half hour and hour with clients. 

Last couple of years I have needed to lose myself in time.  Just let go of it all.  The garden has been great for that.  Oh wow ... I have been happy pottering outside for a few hours ... or losing myself on the forum ... it has been good that I could relax ... but then yes ... when it is addictive ... having to curtail it again ... and on it goes ...

Just great to see you. Teej

[Maggie]

I found it yesterday @Teej. I think it’s an excellent way for motivation, something I struggle with a lot.

You sound like you are doing ok, or ok enough. 👍👍💙💙

I’m swinging the ball and chain, winning sometimes, losing others. What’s new.

The sun is out here today, and some pink blossom, first signs of spring. It’s a long cold winter, that’s for sure.

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜🌷 @Teej .....

Hi everyone 👋💕

[Teej]

Just checking in and rambling a bit. 

Things are very wayward for me. That up the creek without a paddle wayward. I broke again two weeks ago and I'm not doing such a great job at putting the pieces back together. 

The thing is that there are things that I really want to do in this life but for some reason I keep self sabotaging them. I really wanted to come back to the forum and be a consistent friend and member and CG. I've got a huge F on my report card for this. 

I don't know why I can't push through the little things like a normal adult. Running away has become my only familiar pattern of behaviour. 

There are members here that I was so looking forward to chatting with and having that connection again but instead I've hurt the few I've tried to connect with through being so inconsistent and running away or being so scared to post anything to them because I don't want to run away again, so I run away before words are written. There are members that I've got so many images that I've been saving to share with them but I only run away. There are connections who have remained in the front of my mind for the last 8 or more months. I constantly am reminded of them in everyday occurrences and wonder how they are at the time but I come here to post and run away instead. 

I wish I could say that maybe it's just a forum thing but it's not. Pretty much every aspect of my life is about running away. I am scared and lost and really feeling alone even though I'm the one who could change that. I am so stuck at the moment. Hopelessly spiraling out of control more days than not. 

I'm so sorry to anyone here that I've hurt from running away constantly. I'd so hope to think writing this might be the beginning of change but I don't trust myself that much and neither should you. I am really sorry though for not being the person I once was and can't find again. Love to all 💜🤗