I can’t cope

[Captain24]

You would love it!!! @Jynx. The Main Street is 2 way but only fits one car! No give way signs at either end either. Just somehow works out! 

I don’t want to make waves, they will just find an excuse to get rid of me. It’s all good, it’s not that big of a mine that you can go to far wrong. Everyone has to ask questions at some point in the block! I can’t have my phone but it’s pictures anyway. Even when I focus they don’t make real sense! 

I know it’s not a good thing but I feel good about not letting them get to me too much. It does get to me but it’s my way of dealing with it. There is no sarcasm in my tone, I just speak to them the same way as I speak to everyone else. 

I had a Lego day today. I’ve completed 7 sets. I’ve done nothing else, I’m still in my pj’s. We had a storm but it was just thunder and lightning, not much of a show but it’s causing a lot of grief with sticking trees and stuff. There was no rain with it. We have been getting a lot of dry storms lately. They are staring so many fires but people have been into it pretty quick and hasn’t caused to much damage. There is 2 bushfires burning though. We desperately need rain! 

[Jynx]

Removed your other post as requested @Captain24 - hope you are able to be gentle with yourself and take things one step at a time. 

Must be a very small town indeed hahaha

Not making waves is also very legit 😉 We all survive in our own way! And yeah same goes for finding whatever ways you can of dealing with people who aren't very nice.

Oh wow, so much Lego! Which was your fav? Sucks about the droughty weather, do you have like a bushfire prep plan and stuff? 

[Captain24]

Thank you. I just don’t think that conversation belonged there @Jynx 

Im not feeling real good, opened a lot of wounds. 

It has grown but the main street and area have never changed since the gold rush era. 

The weather is getting really bad. I think it’s going to be a bad year for fires. Nah.. I don’t have a plan.

I get that they don’t want to talk to me, I wouldn’t either. Not everyone can get along and it’s ok. 

I think the seal and the watering can with flowers. I did think of you when a did a dragon though! 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 I am sorry that it's stirred stuff up for you hun. All feelings fade eventually, just try to be gentle with yourself in the meantime 💜

Well I hope you get some rain soon so it's less of a worry hey. 

Yep yep! Posted a meme in toolshed 2 today about that very thing - 

And I will also add that people actually started liking me more when I stopped caring about what they think. One of life's lil paradoxes! 

Aww bless!! I love dragons, hehe you remembered!! Which dragon was it? I only know of the one in the D&D set, but I am not well-versed in Lego sets ahaha

[Captain24]

Trying @Jynx really trying. It’s not easy. Im struggling and this ‘forbidden’ thing is really p!sing me off tonight. It’s triggering and not helping. 

Im a little unsettled by it but just don’t let it get to me. I’m sure there is many more that don’t like me either and that’s ok as I don’t like all of them either. It surprises me with how calm I am about it. 

It was a gift either way purchase and it was for the year of the dragon. It’s a little bit cute. But when I pulled the box out all I could think of was you! 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 oh noooo you're still getting tossed about by errors? Frustrating! We have found that it can help to clear your browser cookies/cache, which isn't too hard to do (you can google instructions by searching for the name of your browser + 'how to clear cookies/cache'). 

Yeah so legit! Glad to hear you're able to engage in this calm fashion - let their comments (or lack thereof) be like water off a duck's back, ya know? 

OMG it's sooooo cute! Might have to get me one, I am in love! Wish I was year of the dragon haha I'm a monkey 😋

Do you have a special spot where you display all your Lego?

[Captain24]

Hey @Jynx 

Im on my phone so that shouldn’t matter. It’s getting a bit monotonous though. Thoughts go through my head each time. I know it’s just an error and it shouldn’t worry me.

Yeah.. I’m coping better than expected so that’s good. Progress!!! 

I’ve had a bit of a day.

Jett went out this morning at 6 to go to the toilet. It’s taken me two years to get him to that stage of a morning. He’s good during the day though. But anyway.. I hear this terrified bark from him and he just lost it. Pix went running and starting barking an unusual bark too. I jumped up through my pj’s on and went running. There was a cat under my outdoor table. Both were terrified. The cat then ran inside and came back out. It tried to jump the fence and missed. Pix was chasing it and barking. When it missed the fence she thought it was going to get her and she screamed. Yes, she actually screams. It finally left, not sure how but my dogs wouldn’t stop barking. Seriously it was barks I’ve never heard before. I finally caught Jett and he was shaking and his poor little heart was racing. Pix isn’t suppose to get excited.. also meaning stressed. It could have killed her! It took about an hour to shut them up and calm them down. It p!ssed me off. My dogs are secure and can’t get out, they shouldn’t be scared in their own backyard. The cat must have gotten near their toys inside because Jett hasn’t stopped barking at them all day! 

[Jynx]

It might still matter @Captain24 cos browsers on phones behave pretty similarly to browsers on computers, they're just built a little different to display on a smaller screen - but they still have cookies and caches and stuff and can get 'clogged up'. 

OMG what a hectic morning! Poor little Pix, definitely not what she needs right now. And sounds like Jett's first kitty encounter? It totally sends my anxiety through the roof when I hear my kitties making sounds that are unusual for them, so I totally get where you're coming from! How are they doing now? 

[Captain24]

I’ve just googled it and done it. Hopefully it works @Jynx 

Pix is ok. Jett is still on edge and barking a lot. I wish he would settle. I thought someone was trying to get in. 

Today I have cleaned the house, done the floors, been to a meeting, had lunch and done the front and backyards. 

I hadn’t had a shower since Tuesday and I had one before the meeting and I had another one including washing my hair after mowing. 

Now I’m tried and having some really rough intrusive thoughts. 

Im also stressing about surgery Tuesday. Mum is taking me over and no one is staying. I just have to call if something happens. 

How was your day? 

[tyme]

Ello @Captain24 . I'm just going through all the posts that I've missed. I had over 200 notifications today lol. 

I really wanted to say that I've seen you pop into other threads and I wanted to say I recognise this was not easy. So well done on connecting on other threads and connecting with other members too! 

You really have a wealth of experience to share!

Hope your day was okay today!