Just checking in.

[CheerBear]

I'm pretty excited and wanted to share (and right now there's a bit of ouch happening here with two others and I can't share just yet) - I got the volunteering gig! There's a bit to go before I get to do any actual volunteering and a lot to work out on my end, but this is a huge opportunity and a really big step so I'll do everything I can to take it. It's somewhere I seriously value, doing something I'm so passionate about and I can't wait to start.

Feeling kind of proud 😊😁

[Queenie]

Well done @CheerBear !! 😄 

[CheerBear]

Thanks @Queenie 😁!

[Faith-and-Hope]

@CheerBear  Well done you ❣️

[Teej]

Thanks for your kind words @BryanaCamp . Your post made me think about a few things. Firstly I guess I do need to make the effort to get out there. I think when I’m ready again it might be better.

I think money is always a problem when socialising too.  I have friends on very good incomes but I can’t do much of what they do and our worlds are very different now. Although they are still friends it’s a limiting kind of friendship because of money and lifestyle. They are all very generous with me but there is now quite a big divide and I feel it more and more. 

Im really sorry that your brother has been so unwell and so far away. It sounds like a good thing you are exercising some self care. It must be very frustrating though. 

I know hrt helps a bit for me because my mood is way worse off it but my cycle is not good and I think I need to stop again for a bit. I also need an operation in that region and there is a possibility of a hysterectomy which would solve that problem but I guess I’m not sure about taking hrt for life then too. I will wait until my appointment and discuss it with the gynaecologist (whenever that ends up being). 

Thanks for taking time to respond. I hope your day has been ok.... or even good 💜🤗

[Teej]

@CheerBear 

One of my faves.

too much celebrating @CheerBear ? Nope! you can never have too much when there is good stuff happening. Well done you! 💜🤗

[CheerBear]

😁😆 Thanks @Teej! Big smile seeing that colourful, moving post 😊 I'm hiding away sharing a moment with my furballs feeling very excited about this. It's a good feeling. I so wish I could share where it is (but I know I can't). Pretty cool 😎

Thank you also @Faith-and-Hope ❤

[Zoe7]

That is amazing news @CheerBear So proud of you. I have no doubt that you will be an asset wherever it is - especially if it is somewhere that you have a passion in the work this place is doing. Super happy for you CB 

[Teej]

Just checking in.

@CheerBear i hope you are still carrying a bit of excitement about your news yesterday. 

I am ok. It helped a bit to switch off but then I got panicky this morning. I rang my group person as today was a one on one session and I delayed it because I knew I’d be negative and the chance of ending in internal rage was high. She informed me that they were going to continue that group in a different format next term and asked if I’d be interested. I think that took some pressure off. I’m not quite as highly strung this minute, still way up there but not snapping level. 

I have my psych this afternoon. I am scared to tell her something which Im not sure if I can write here as is very much not a role model thing or a recommended thing I’ve done but is very much a me thing. I changed the dosage of my meds over a week ago, not by much and to a dose I’ve been on before. If it was anyone else I’d be recommending them talk to their psych first. I was clutching at straws trying to feel better at the time and I think it helped but it could have been psychosomatic too. I’m not sure how she will take it. 

Rave over. Mind a bit more at ease. 

[CheerBear]

There's some excitement still thanks @Teej, alongside a decent serving of self-doubt wondering whether I'm up for all of these things I'm trying to do (probably normal) with a touch (probably a bit more than a touch) of that sadness that lingers around us at the moment. I was thanked lots for my support from a very sad someone last night and also thanked for 'being a rock'. I might look like a rock but I'm not always feeling so rock-ish on the inside.

I'm glad the switch off helped last night and really glad you have some pressure taken off with the group situation. It sounds like something that's really helpful and important for you to have the chance to do.

I get what you're saying about how we don't always make the most recommended choices when we're looking for something, anything, to help. I think lots of us would understand that one. I hope your psych is able to understand it too.

🤞 it goes well this afternoon. Big ❤