Yesterday I told another support worker about how much the article I read has brought up for me. I was kinda full of it and it overflowed. My psychologist cancelled for yesterday and I'd been counting on talking with her about it. Have to wait til next wednesday now. Anyway this support worker really listened and asked some good questions and really seemed to empathise when I spoke about the details of what happened to me and the actions of the police in both cases. She was very supportive, if somewhat shocked.
After we went to the big shopping complex we went in search of the coastal lagoon I'd wanted to explore, the aboriginal women's place. Except almost as soon as I turned maps on on my phone and tried to read it I got hit with sudden and full-on car sickness - strong nausea and dizziness. She was driving. I said keep going it'll probably go away. Haven't had car sickness like that for decades. So we muddled around and eventually found the place, but I was too sick to even get out of the car. At one stage I said fancy coming here just to vomit and leave again! But I managed not to. So we just went home an hour early. I was still feeling pretty crook so told her she could go 1/2 hr early and lay down and slept for 1 1/2 hrs. Still a bit crook when I woke up.
Thinking about it today I wonder about it - it seems surreal to me that I would get so sick so suddenly and not be able to visit the place and explore. Wondering if I just wasn't meant to go there. Just adventuring onto bush trails I'd not been on before brought up a lot of memories from times in my past, particularly when I was pretty involved in the lives of two elderly aboriginal women and their title claim business. Some of you know the longer version of that chapter in my life.
Lots to think about today, to say the least.
Take care all.
That's my rave for today.
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